Today I sat in a medium circle online. I had my headphones in and as we went into relaxation I became very aware of the thumping of my heart and the boom boom, boom boom noise it was making. In my minds eye I could see clearly a life support machine and a gentleman lying in a bed. He had an oxygen mask on and was alone. He told me his name was Jack. Suddenly the machine flatlined. I asked if anyone in the group could take this gentleman. Nobody could. One lady suggested that it may have just happened. Sometimes this can happen with spirits. Before they transition to the spirit world they visit someone. Normally it is a member of the family but Jack came through with an important message. He was still with me when we finished the group chat so I asked him if he wouldn’t mind helping himself to a cup of tea whilst I did an interview and as soon as I finished I would chat with him. ( You know sometimes when you think life can’t get any weirder than it is right now, and you’re speaking to a spirit in your house asking him to make himself a cup of tea!)
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Jack, aged 64, from Gloucester.
“I needed to speak with you as I have recently left my body. I am aware that there will be many people at this time dying alone. Without their friends, family or loved ones nearby. I wanted you to share this message as I feel it may bring comfort to someone on the earth plane.
Although it may be perceived that when we pass, we are alone this is not true. In my case, my wife had passed before me and she was there to embrace me. My parents stood side by side ready to embrace me too. Before I join them on the spirit side I was told to connect and bring this message to you to share.
Physically your loved one may be alone when they pass. Spiritually they are not. What I felt when the machine flatlined was like an all embracing feeling of love. I wasn’t scared or panicked. I had this knowing that I was going home. I was safe. Loved. For anyone worrying about their loved ones at this time, I hope this message brings reassurance. Tell those you love that you love them every day. As we are all born, we all die.
I will leave those words with you to share. I will now make my transition to the other side and leave you in peace. Thank you for my tea. Goodbye”
He walked out my front door with a wave back. I cried for a short while conscious of the emotions being felt around the world at this time and the wonderful gift Jack had left for others.
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Top 10 spiritual books to read during coronavirus. I was asked for some books that I would recommend to support someone with their spiritual development. These are my top 10 books that I personally have read and loved over the last 10 years
My top 10 Spiritual Book Recommendations
A Gentle Hug for the Soul: Providing comfort and reassurance in times of need by me 🙂 Written following my own dark night of the soul where I lost my best friend to cancer then went through a difficult separation and divorce.
Angels in my Hair- Lorna Byrne. The first book I ever read about Angels which has since allowed me to connect and work with them. A beautiful story of how Lorna came to be visited by them and work with them too. If you are curious about angels this book is a great place to start
Rise Sister Rise- Rebecca Campbell. I read this book post separation and it highlighted for me the need for the rise of the divine feminine. I hadn’t even contemplated myself as a feminine being until I read this. A must read for embracing the divine feminine within.
Moonology- Yasmin Boland. If you have seen anything on social media about the Full Moon or New Moon and wonder how it can be relevant in your life you need to read this book. Easy to understand and you can start applying the tools straight away!
A New Earth- Eckhart Tolle. I remember trying to read the Power of Now about 10 years ago and not really ‘getting’ it. I borrowed this book though and it made so much sense. I took copious notes from it as so much of what he said resonated with my soul about the way to live our life
Same Soul: Many Bodies- Dr Brian Weiss. An introduction into reincarnation and how the soul has lived many times before and may live afterwards too. This is one I always hear recommended for anyone interested in reincarnation
The Surrender Experiment- Michael A Singer. If you are struggling to surrender to what the Universe has planned for you, this is a fabulous book that can highlight the opportunities and possibilities that open up to you when you surrender to the Universe
End of Days- Sylvia Browne. I read this whilst going through my divorce and remember Sylvia prophesising the end of marriage as we know it as it is such an outdated concept. Currently in the news for prophesising the coronavirus. A fabulous medium and seer.
Bringers of the Dawn- Barbara Merciniak. This book introduced me to the Pleidians and their teachings for the first time. A simple to read guide which again has some great teachings for your way of being
As I was about to write this blog post I got this song in my head so it felt quite apt for the title. The last few days have been surreal, not only for myself but for everyone else. We have never before lived through a pandemic and being forced into isolation for many of us will bring about all sorts of fear and worry. What does the future hold? I switched on BBC R2 earlier to hear the song Crazy, crazy nights by Kiss. If you haven’t heard it check it out here https://youtu.be/z2loCbMSj6g. I was washing the dishes and found myself singing out loud and dancing. These activities lift your vibration.
I recently added a YouTube video about going back to basics, mindfulness, gratitude, reading, writing and spending time with those you love. What the world needs now is love, sweet love. Love for yourself and love for others. Compassion, kindness and humility.
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Over the last few days my connection to the spirit world has been growing and I have been visited by some interesting characters from history including William Blake and Julius Caesar. This morning I sat down to ask what his message was and this is what he gave me
“From the old came the new. At times in history there is a call for reinvention amongst the human race. This time is now. It is not enough for you all to do bits here and there individually. In order to live on an earth that you want to there must be the crumbling of the old. It takes great courage and determination to change the ways of not only one country but the whole world. There are many of you at this time already awake and aware. It requires a determination within, and maybe sacrifice. Letting go of the parts of you that you have held onto for too long. Letting go of the fears. Fear of being you. Fear of human connection, connecting to yourself and others. Fear of change. Fear of lack. Fear of routine. Overall fear to let go and shift. For a new way to be embraced. To stand at the parapet and allow your voices to be heard. A great orator is needed. Someone who is respected for their kindness and compassion, their gentle strength, their courageous faith and trust. That person will come. In the meantime there are many of you to lead and inspire others through this period of darkness and unknown. Work together. In times of need such as this, the light joins and creates and helps to rebirth a new way of being. I thank you for your time”
Sending much love and light to you all at this time
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Originally penned by 16th century poet, Saint John of the Cross, describes a spiritual crisis in the union towards God. Now, many of us today aren’t informed or aware of this Dark Night of the Soul so when it happens it feels more like the shit has hit the fan. We have no concept of what is going on so we struggle through it, until we happen across a blog or a YouTube video that just happens to mention that what we are experiencing is similar. The symptoms of the Dark Night of the Soul are similar to depression but can we distinguish between the two? I feel that with the dark night of the soul it is indicative of a spiritual transformation taking place. With depression there is a struggle to get out of the abyss. With the dark night of the soul, there is a faith or a belief, no matter how small that something bigger and grander than us, will pull us out. Whatever it is, it can feel for many like we are the only person in the world going through this at the time. We’re not. I had no idea when I went through mine what it was or what resources were out there. Please know you don’t have to go through this alone. I have set up a Facebook group for anyone going through ‘stuff’ called Consciousness Arising which you are welcome to join. It is a safe community where you can ask questions and feel safe to do so. https://www.facebook.com/groups/ConsciousnessArising
What are the symptoms of a Dark Night of the Soul?
Please note this list doesn’t cover everything, most of these are how I felt going through my own experience
Wondering what your purpose is in life
Some people say they see/hear the Devil
Your soul feels torn between what it ‘has been taught’ to do and what it feels it wants to do
Your life may not feel like yours anymore, instead it is controlled by work, a partner, family
You question your own existence
You question life itself, how did we get here? Why are we here?
You cry, a lot
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I experienced my own Dark Night of the Soul back in 2017. I had lost my best friend to cancer on my 36th birthday the previous October, then my husband and I decided to separate a few months later. Everything I had known for the previous 10 years was gone. Disintegrated. I didn’t know who I was anymore. I had been a wife and a mum for so long I wasn’t sure who Lindsay was anymore. I remember about 8 months later taking a video of myself dancing crazily around the living room singing to the Killers and sending it to my sister. That’s the Lindsay I remember she said. How did I lose myself so much? I spent 6 months finding myself again. Clawing within, grieving for my friend, for my marriage. Who had I become? I couldn’t remember the last time I had laughed freely, like proper belly laughed or cried. Why was I here? What was my purpose? I did a guided meditation to meet my spirit guide. He came through to me and told me my purpose was to teach, to educate and to inform. To teach what, I asked. He laughed and disappeared. Even though he didn’t tell me what I had to teach, I made it my mission to share knowledge and to connect with others. I came through it and thought I’m pleased I don’t have to do that again. Unfortunately I did have another one. I didn’t even know you could have two so please be aware that you can. Thankfully this one was shorter and involved more healing and shedding trauma, not only mine but past and ancestral and yes it hurt, yes it was painful and I cried, a lot. Would I do it again? Yes, because I know the healing I am doing is helping my children, and their children and our future.
How can you get through a Dark Night of the Soul?
I had my tips and I also asked in my FB group for theirs, so here is a list of things that may help
Drinking herbal teas
Saying the Lords Prayer
Speaking to Angels
Spending time outdoors in nature
Sleep ( AKA a spiritual practise)
Allowing yourself and everything around you to fall apart
Screaming and roaring outside
Beating a drum
If you have had your own experience of the Dark Night of the Soul then do feel free to share and if you have any tips on how you overcame it also let us know. Thanks for reading
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I didn’t even know Ascension Flu was a thing until yesterday! I had taken myself off for a walk in the woods as I try to do most days. I wasn’t feeling particularly great but wasn’t sure why. In my mind I asked if I had the onset of flu. I was told ‘ascension sickness’ What on earth is that? I came home and tweeted asking if it was a thing. Tumbleweed. I decided to google it and found that several bloggers had written about it and one author, Brigid Delaney, had written about it for the Guardian.
Ascension flu occurs when our physical bodies fail to keep up with our spiritual growth. We are aligning with energies and frequencies which may not have been felt before. As we head towards 2020 we are entering a new phase of being and that can affect us physically. We may not feel well, but not really sure why. We may go to the doctors, they may run tests and nothing. It is as if you have the actual ‘flu’ but different. Below are some of the symptoms.
What are the symptoms of Ascension Flu?
Pains and aches within the body that can’t be explained by a doctor
Hot flashes through the body
Waking up through the night and not being able to go back to sleep, or if you do only for a couple of hours
Extremely vivid dreams
A change in diet
Headaches- Our 3rd eye chakra and pineal gland may be opening, allowing us to connect to ourselves and the other side.
Sore throat- For many of us we have kept quiet about the work we do and maybe even our beliefs, hiding them from friends and family. Our throat chakra is the place where we communicate from. As our energies ascend we are more likely to share these beliefs with others.
Ringing in ears- this is opening up our clairaudience.
Sensitivity to noise ( really felt this yesterday with my 5yo daughter!)
Cravings for particular types of foods. I haven’t eaten nachos in years then had them twice in one week! Eat what your body wants you to eat. Some of us may comfort eat at this time as we want to protect our solar plexus area
Crying for no reason. I have never cried as much as I have the last 4-6 weeks. Sobbing my heart out at the wheel of my car whilst singing to Ellie Goulding.
Gritty or blurry eyes
We aren’t just a physical body, we are energy bodies and with that we carry around a lot of information within and around our bodies. We are healing not only our ‘stuff’ that has happened in this lifetime but we are also healing our past life ‘stuff’, our ancestors ‘stuff’ so is it any wonder we have physical symptoms of releasing these energy blockages that we have been carrying around for a lifetime?
How can you get through Ascension flu?
The biggest tip I would say is to be kind to yourself. If you have a daily routine of meditating or yoga carry on. If not you might want to think about how you can implement these into your life. Take nana naps if you can. Even a 10 minute snooze in the car before you pick your kids up from school can help. Go to bed early. Eat what you feel like eating. Ask your body, is this what my body needs right now? Allow yourself to go with the flow. The benefits of ascension flu is that once this has passed you will be more aligned energetically, and this will cause a ripple effect to your family and friends and loved ones around you.
I was working today with a friend of mine. We were both at a company to offer wellbeing services to their staff, namely massage and Reiki. My friend, June, was giving massage and I was offering Reiki. The reactions of the staff varied. Some people were completely opposed to the idea of having Reiki whilst some were very open to it.. My first experience of Reiki was back in 2002. I was studying International Business in Hong Kong and my friend, Felix, had been off on a weekend retreat to learn it. He came back and placed his hands on my back. I remember feeling this intense heat. “Wow, whats that?” I asked. His reply? “Reiki” I went back to uni, got my degree and forgot about it. In 2008 I split up with my boyfriend, failed a job interview for my own job and felt stuck. What do I need? I don’t need a massage, I need something more. I then remembered Reiki.
I found a lady in Peterborough and went off to her house for a session. I had no idea what to expect. I lay down on a couch with blankets over me, fully clothed I may add! ( I often get asked if you need to be naked for Reiki. Personally I prefer you keep your clothes on! There is no need to be naked) She placed her hands on and around me, then spoke to me about fairies and angels. “Crazy lady”, I thought. I didn’t feel anything at the time and left thinking what a waste of money. However, what I didn’t realise at the time was how Reiki works on our energy bodies. It takes times to work and sometimes it can be quite subtle.
A couple of weeks later I noticed that I felt calmer. She emailed me later to ask if I wanted to learn it. I was intrigued so said yes. Even when I first started practising Reiki I felt like a fraud, as I couldn’t feel anything in my hands. Clients would often say how they had felt heat or tingling, so it was obviously working for them. It took me a while to learn how to feel and see energy.
Over the years I have become much more in tune with others energies. I recognise what sensations are in my hands and what they mean for myself and my client. With a massage we can feel straight away the benefits of the physical touch, of our muscles relaxing and feeling ‘better’. Having a Reiki session differs as it works on our energy fields. Sometimes people hold onto their emotions, afraid to let go. Reiki opens up that space. I remember one client ten years ago sobbing on my treatment bed as she had held so many emotions in for so long. When I offer Reiki to clients my intention is to hold the space for them, to allow their emotions to rise to the surface and be released. When we repress our emotions it can make us feel physically unwell. Reiki can bring those emotions up to be healed.
Reiki has many benefits and I often see clients for only one session. In today’s world many businesses talk about client retention. If I saw someone 12 times a year for Reiki I wouldn’t feel as if I was doing my life’s work. I would rather see them once or twice then they either continue their healing path with other modalities or they choose to learn it for themselves. Taking responsibility for their own wellbeing and spiritual path. Reiki can help us to release ‘stuff’ that we no longer need.
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I truly believe that the Universe conspires to put you in the right place at the right time for what you need. A Facebook post by a friend went out last Sunday saying that some Mexican shamanic healers had arrived at the Sanctuary they run. Did anyone want some shamanic healing for a donation? I posted it into my Facebook group, Consciousness Arising and several people said they were interested. On the Monday I had arranged a physical meet up for said group. It was going to be in a central location in town. One of the guys in my group, Paul, suggested we meet at the Sanctuary instead. Great idea!
On a fairly warm Monday evening we arrived at the Rising Dawn Sanctuary. A fire had been lit in the grounds and we sat with a cup of herbal tea chatting. Several members of the group went for the shamanic healing whilst we chatted about synchronicities and the Universe. Nam Prakash, who runs the Sanctuary, asked me if we would like to stay for the sweat lodge ceremony which was happening later that evening. Several members had to head off. Five of us said yes we would love to. After about an hour finally one of us asked what is a sweat lodge and what do we have to do.
Entering the sweat lodge
Tai, the Mexican shaman, had built the sweat lodge with natural twigs and thrown blankets over the top. It looked like a short domed hut. We were standing in the kitchen drinking tea when we found out that in a sweat lodge it was too warm to keep your clothes on. Luckily there were some towels to protect our modesty as some of us weren’t quite prepared to be half naked in a tent full of strangers. A fire had been lit not far from the sweat lodge. Tai and his daughter, Sunflower led us through a beautiful ceremony thanking the four elements, Earth, Wind, Air and Fire. The women were invited into the lodge first.
It was dark outside so we undressed, placed the towels over certain places and headed in. As you enter you say an ancient Toltec phrase to give a blessing. There is a hole dug in the centre where the hot rocks would be later placed. We crawled around the hole, slightly ungracefully. There was lots of ow’s and ouches as we stood on twigs and rocks. Thankfully I had brought my cardigan in which provided some cushioning for my bum on the hard ground.
Note: This is not THE actual sweat lodge we went in
The men were invited in following the women. We sat in the darkness whilst the rocks were gradually brought in and filled in the hole. A herbal blend had been stewed which would later be poured on the said stones to create the steam. As I sat half naked in this dark tent, I was giggling to myself. The members of my group will never want to come out with me again! Eventually the last rock was placed in the centre. The makeshift door was closed. Pitch black. Tai started chanting and warbling, using his throat to make these beautiful sounds which resonated within and around you.
Feeling the steam!
As the herbs and water were placed onto the hot rocks the steam hit your face. It was quite intense at first and caught the back of my throat, which made me cough. As it subsided and the next lot of steam hit my face I became more used to it. We were encouraged to deep breathe and you could feel your sinuses clearing. In my mind I could see my Native American guide standing with me on a cliff edge pointing at the land and telling me to claim the unclaimed land. I could feel my body and my face dripping in sweat which made me feel cleaner and more purified. The basic idea behind sweat lodges are that they are to help purify the mind and body.
I lost track of how long we were in there but by the time we came out and got dressed it was after 11pm. We gave thanks by the fire and everyone said how they had felt. There was a Full Moon bright in the sky and I truly felt as if I had been part of something special. I told the guys in my group how proud I was of them for saying yes to something that they had no idea what it was and for joining me in my crazy adventures!
What is Qoya? Every now and then I happen upon something new and different that I have never experienced before. This was the case with Qoya. During a summer play date with some friends we were sat in the garden, in the beautiful sunshine, the children playing happily. My friend, Will, mentioned that she was going to be running a Qoya class at a festival a couple of weeks later. She mentioned she needed some guinea pigs. Let’s do it now then, several of us said. We had no idea what it was. Will said was that it was
“An embodiment practice about becoming more and more able to listen to the wisdom within your body and tuning into your true essence which is Wise Wild and Free…. and being able to use that wisdom to guide you through life”
Will put some music on and we started dancing, 6 of us, in the garden. The kids joined in, we had fun and we laughed! When Will mentioned that she would be putting on a Qoya class in York I was excited. I am not a fan of gyms.
Eight of us came together on a cold Sunday morning. We were greeted by a beautiful mandala mat, with positive affirmations and a variety of oracle cards. Yoga mats and blankets were provided for those of us who forgot to take one, yep that would be me.
We sat down and did some breathing work, picked a card and chatted to our neighbour about what it meant for us. my card was the Black Madonna. The guide book stated that , “It helps us to become conscious of the light in the dark, of the intersection of sexuality and spirituality. The darkness we sometimes feel is potential. It’s crucial that we all go through this to create new or more life. She is the promise of what doesn’t survive the fires of suffering was never meant for us.” I felt that was very apt as having gone into the Full Moon in Pisces it does ask us to face our shadow.
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Opening of the chakras
We did some heart opening exercises, designed to open the chakras and hip opening exercises too, where a lot of tension can be stored. We could keep our eyes closed if we wanted to or leave them open. The music that was played fitted exactly with each type of movement we did. What I really liked about this class was that it wasn’t like an exercise class to get you physically fit. We were often checking in with our bodies, how does that feel? Listening to our bodies, how do our bodies want to dance. A shadow dance felt extremely different to the free dancing at the end where you could go wild.
Each class has a theme and this one was ‘Breaking Free’ Following the shadow dance we did some body shaking whilst Will told us a story of a gazelle and a lion. I didn’t even hear the end as I was in tears after several minutes. I cry a lot as a way of releasing what no longer serves me, so this didn’t come as a shock to me.
For me Qoya works as it allows us to tap into our emotions, our intuition and truly feel the energy of the movement. Will held the space for all those in the circle very well and you truly got the feeling that she embodies the spirit of being wild and free in her heart. I will definitely be going again!
Glastonbury Festival has been on my list of places to visit since the summer of 2016 when my husband and I were in the process of divorcing. I was sat at home watching Glastonbury when the Killers came on. I had first seen them performing back in 2002 at a small venue in Manchester. There was maybe 50 of us there. It was small but awesome. Seeing them perform at Glastonbury I danced around the room singing Mr Brightside. I posted on facebook asking if I was too old to go. No came the resounding reply.
Fast forward to 2019 and I was gifted a ticket, last minute, by a friend of mine. Did I want to go? Hell yeah! The Killers were headlining. I arrived at the festival with no idea of what it would be like. In my 38 years on this planet not once had I ever felt the urge to go to a festival. But this was Glastonbury! I had to go. It was hot when I arrived, and I hadn’t realised it would take me a good 45 minutes to the tent from my car. I was hot, sweaty and had heat exhaustion by the time I arrived at the tent. My friend had already arrived and kindly put it up for us. I was extremely grateful for this. We quickly met and off I headed with a small map in hand. No idea really where I was going. I located the main stage, found some shade and sat down to listen to Janet Jackson. Personally I wasn’t feeling it so headed off on a wander.
As a newbie to festivals I loved it! I had no idea who Stormzy was, or Lizzo or even Slim Thai ( I think that was his name, a rapper who recently was nominated for a Mercury Prize Award. Even though I didn’t know the songs the messages from these guys were soooo powerful! Stormzy had a way of bringing people together through the content of his music, his passion and his drive. Lizzo was all about self love and self beauty. In the crowd we were all telling ourselves I love me, then turning to our neighbours and telling them I love them. Slim Thai organised a mosh pit and at the end told everyone we never leave anyone behind.
I told my friend that I liked how he was channelling his anger in a productive way and that I was pleased our younger people had some inspiring role models. When I said this it did make me feel old! There were so many people there though, different ages from babes in arms to those in their 70’s. They were all connecting through the music at this festival. Not only is it a showcase for musicians and talented artists but it is also a space where you can leave your life behind and escape into a magical world of love, peace and music.
Dawnlight Festival 2019
Fast forward a few months and I was lucky enough to attend the very first Dawnlight Festival in North Yorkshire. Nam Prakash Kaur had a vision of bringing people together. Working alongside her four sons, this festival had a completely different feel to it. I can imagine this is what someone who attended the first Glastonbury Festival might have felt. It was magical, special and something that I had never experienced before. There was maybe 100 people there. With workshops on through the day, time for reflection with sharing circles, stunning food and a cafe serving amazing chai lattes, singing and dancing, sometimes impromptu, you felt as if you were part of a loving and supportive community of like minded people.
I arrived on the Friday and instantly felt relaxed with a nice cup of chai latte. Some people had arrived the day before but that didn’t stop them from welcoming me in. The standard greeting was a hug. And sometimes long ones. I attended a Moon Energy Centre workshop held by Nam Prakash. I had never even heard of these before. Men have 1 located on their chin. Women have 11 and we move through these centres every 2.5 days. We did an internal check in as to how we were feeling. I felt sunny and sociable. Later on when I checked which centre I was in, it turned out I was in the clitoris energy, which is sociable! Going through these energy centres every 2.5 days can explain why we can feel so up and down at times.
I didn’t feel as if I needed any healing or massage whilst I was there but if you wanted it there was some on offer. The tantric speed encounter workshop was amazing. It made me realise how little I dance, and I love dancing! We danced silently for the most part, connecting with people and looking in their eyes. Making great eye contact can be a struggle for some at times, but the more we practise the better we get. We paid compliments to others about what we noticed in them and how it made us feel. We learnt to set boundaries by saying no when others asked if we wanted to connect with them.
The atmosphere was extremely energised, especially at the end when it was freestyle dancing to some very energetic music. I bounced on a trampoline with a couple of other ladies until I finally ran out of energy and headed home at 830pm. When I got home rather than checking my phone and switching on the laptop I sat outside under the stars. I saw a shooting star and a baby hedgehog scuttled by.
Dancing at Dawnlight Festival 2019
Spartan Warrior training!
Unfortunately I had prior work commitments on the Saturday but headed back on the Sunday. I bumped into my buddy from the sharing circle on the Friday so we had a cup of tea together. I had spotted on the timetable something called Spartan Warrior Training. After the softness of the workshop on the Friday I felt like I needed something more intense. I wasn’t disappointed. We started off running on the spot. 12 men and 4 women. We then did a short visualisation where we imagined carrying a sword and shield. Tools in life to defend ourselves. We made warrior style sounds coming from deep within and the grunts resonated around the tent. We were split into 2 sides and we had to run towards our partner on hands and feet and back again. Being fairly unfit I adapted my particular posture, mine was more like a monkey running. Whenever the chap in charge shouted Spartan we had to sprint out to a field, bang a drum and back again. There was lots of squatting and hi fiving.
I can imagine these workshops going down well in the workplace to bring everyone together. To say it was intense would be an understatement. My thighs are killing me today. At the end we were hosed down, much needed after an hour session in the heat. Thinking it was finished I grabbed a cup of tea. Some of the guys started wrestling so I sat down to watch. A couple of the ladies had a go. I thought I have never done that before, I’d love a turn. I was paired up with Sarah. Before we started we gave each other a hug. Then…she took me down! I did try as hard as I could to get out of it but she had me. I was exhausted after all this so went and lay in the cool shade of the trees to chat and relax.
After a fairly busy morning I thought I would head to a meditation class led by Jonny and Olivia. It was a beautiful class but I was very distracted in my own mind and kept wanting to laugh at the geese in the next field which sounded as if they were laughing.
When Lisa came to visit
I then attended Ryan’s Playful Mindfulness session. My mind again was distracted but this time I got a shock. A very close friend of mine, Lisa, passed away on my 36th birthday in 2016. I’ve heard very little from her except when she turned up once in a circle and told me off. As I was sat listening to Ryan’s voice I could feel her next to me. She was a very playful character anyway. She brought up some memories and told me some stuff I needed to hear. I left the tent as Ryan was still talking. I knew I couldn’t sit in the space any longer. I walked away sobbing. Thankfully I bumped into Kitty, a beautiful soul, who took me into her tent and calmed me down. For me this was one of the things I loved about this festival. There were a lot of tears, a lot of releasing and processing ‘stuff’ going on in the camp. If you wanted someone to hold you, be present for you, hold the space for you there was plenty of people there to do that.
The closing ceremony involved singing, music and everyone standing together holding hands. A few words were said by Nam Prakash. The connections that were made at this festival, the openness, the honesty, the fun, the laughter, the tears, the authenticity, the friendships will truly stay in my heart and in my soul forever. This festival started with a vision and the reality was in my words? Awesome. Can’t wait for next year!
For more information on the Dawnlight Festival and the Rising Dawn Sanctuary head to their Facebook Page
I had never been to a music festival until this year. It was on the List. The List that I wrote back in January of things I wanted to achieve, places I wanted to visit and experiences I wanted to have. Glastonbury Festival was on it. My friend called me 10 days before the festival to say he had a spare ticket, did I want to go with him? Hell yeah! Is it on your vision board? He asked me. No but its on the List! After saying yes I had 10 days to prepare myself and get together what I needed. I googled for tips and ideas.
Having your period at a festival
( If you are squeamish and don’t want to read about blood or periods then skip this paragraph) I realised I was going to have my period that weekend and started googling having your period at festivals. I had heard so much about the toilets and how they weren’t particularly pleasant, so the last thing I wanted to do was to spend more time in the toilets than I needed to. I have a mooncup so tried using that before I went. Nightmare. You need to practise using this for probably several months before going rather than a day. The bathroom resembled a scene from a horror movie after I tried to empty it one morning. That’s not going to work. I then spent nearly a whole day reading and reviewing period pants. I eventually ordered some to be delivered next day delivery. I can sometimes be a bit last minute! They didn’t arrive on the Thursday and I left on the Friday. I ended up doing a last minute supermarket dash stocking up on tampons, pads and panty liners. None of which are green or environmentally friendly. However, I knew what I was doing and could change them in the dark if need be. In the end it wasn’t as big a deal as I had thought it would be
Arriving at Glastonbury festival
Non squeamish people you can resume reading here. Bag packed and drove down to Glastonbury. When you park take note of any flags and numbers nearby. I took a photo of where I parked my car which was actually extremely handy. Now bear in mind you might have a bit of a walk to where you are camping. It took me an hour from where my car was to reach the tent. Take a trolley or wheely device to carry the heavier stuff. When I arrived it was 28 degrees and by the time I got to the tent I had a thumping dehydration headache. Decide who you would like to see before you get there. The time it takes to get between stages can take up to half an hour or more. You also need to take into account waiting times at the bar, eating, sitting and enjoying some of the therapies on offer in the Healing Fields.
Go with the flow. I have no qualms about going anywhere by myself. I was lying in the tent one morning and I heard a lady say that she had missed going to see a band that she loved because she didn’t want to go by herself. This is YOUR festival and YOUR experience. Don’t stay with your friends if it means you miss seeing one of your all time favourite bands. I wanted to see the Killers and my friend wanted to see the Chemical Brothers so we went our separate ways and both had a blast! I got chatting to a chap next to me and we went for drinks afterwards. My friend got chatting and went out afterwards too. Neither one of us came back and said how gutted we were that the other one wasn’t there.
Messages from the musicians and artists
Be open to new bands and artists. I had never heard of Stormzy ( What? I hear you cry) I live in my own bubble at times. I saw him and thought he was amazing! A grime artist ( I didn’t know what that was either!), an entertainer, 25, on the Main stage at Glastonbury, bringing black ballet in front of thousands, and giving shout outs to upcoming artists that he personally knows, oh and showing huge gratitude, a belief in God and singing about it. For me it showed true authenticity! Lizzo was another artist that I had heard of but never heard before.
We were three rows from the front. Onto the stage came this lady with such force, energy and presence. Wearing a bright purple sequin leotard with an extremely high leg line, this amazing hair and owning the stage. Another artist who expressed huge gratitude. She had been to Glastonbury a few years before and 2 people had turned up to watch them and this year she was performing in front of maybe 30000 people? Lizzo is a lady about body positivity and self love. She had the whole audience telling themselves, “I love me. I am beautiful” then turning to our neighbours and telling them the same. A lady with a global message of love. Her authenticity and gratitude shined through.
Prior to Lizzo coming on the stage was Slowthai, a white rapper from Northampton, 24. During this whole festival one thing I learnt is that I have no idea how to dance to rap or grime so I seemed to spend a lot of time bouncing and doing some sort of bobbing. I saw my first mosh pit via the screen. My friends actually wanted me to participate in one and thought it would be fun. I preferred to watch on the big screen. At 24 to be playing at Glastonbury, I think is awesome and hats off to him. From my personal point of view, he seemed to be channelling anger in a very constructive way, which I think makes him a great role model for our younger generation. ( I feel so old writing that but it is how I feel) I also just saw a tweet from him that said. ” See you on the Pyramid Stage next year” Love it! Aim for the skies.
What is Glastonbury festival about?
Overall for me, watching these artists, Glastonbury is more than just the music. It’s about ambition, drive, determination to succeed, having that dream, authenticity, love and gratitude. Immense gratitude for their journey. I wish them all well and am so grateful that I got to see them all live.
My top tips for enjoying the Glastonbury experience
Take a reuseable water bottle and stay hydrated
Compostable toilets are cleaner and smell better than the longdrops, they are the way forward!
Longdrops are green toilet cubicles scattered around the site. Take your own toilet roll.
Suncream, hats, wellies AND comfortable footwear are a must
You can take your own alcohol onto the site which saves you money, but no glass bottles
A sleeping bag and a self inflated mat with a blanket on top kept me warm enough at night
Some places only take cash. There are cash machines on site but they do charge so take some cash too
You can volunteer there which means you get to camp, take showers and eat meals in exchange for working in various areas