This morning I was visited by an old friend. Nothing unusual with that you may be thinking. Maybe, but this friend passed over around twenty years ago. I was told he had passed from a heroin overdose. I haven’t thought about him in years. I used to work with him. All of a sudden he was in my mind. The image of him wouldn’t dissipate so I got up and came downstairs to write. This is what he said,
“I chose to end my life as I was in a dark place. I couldn’t see a way out. My childhood wasn’t great and as I got older I chose to numb my emotions with alcohol( He’s sat next to me smoking a cigarette as he tells me what to write) It started with alcohol and I thought that was enough. I could block out the memories and the pain. It worked when I was drunk but when I wasn’t drunk, all of that was still there. I didn’t know any of this stuff that you do Lindsay. It wasn’t even on my radar. I started taking/using heroin as it brought me a sense of relief, even more than the alcohol. I felt I had achieved something in my life. I had learnt how to deal with the pain. I know now I hadn’t but it felt like that to me. One day I thought I’ll take a little bit more, just to see what happens. That was it. I passed. I remember standing over my body, my shell and feeling such a sense of peace, like I’d never felt before. I felt free. I didn’t feel sadness or pain. I turned and walked away from myself. I saw my grandad waiting for me. He embraced me and we walked through a tunnel of bright white light.
I went into like a movie theatre to sit down and watch my life in replay. The good bits and not so good. You were in it and I want to thank you. I realise that I wasn’t capable of loving anyone else as I couldn’t love myself. You always treated me with respect and kindness. Thank you. I am now helping others who are at that edge, who may be suffering and feeling pain. Where I can, I am signposting them and sending signs to where they can find help or talk to someone. We aren’t born to suffer or be in pain.
I am more equipped on this side to help others on Earth, than I was on the Earth plane. ( I asked why he came through) To say thank you and to let you know that there are a team of us spirit side working also on healing the suffering and pain on Earth. Keep up the good work!”
We were friends for a short period of time and whilst I was writing this I did feel very emotional. I asked where the best place to put his message was and I was told here, so here it is.
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