Have you always been into this?
No. My parents weren’t particularly spiritual although they did instil some very strong values in me. I used to love reading about ghosts as a child and was fascinated by the idea of an afterlife. It wasn’t until 2002, whilst studying in Hong Kong, that I was introduced to Reiki by my friend, Felix. He placed his hands on my back and I felt this intense heat. That’s a bit weird I thought. Fast forward to a career in retail management, drinking 7 cups of fully loaded caffeine every day, smoking 20 cigarettes, working 40 plus hours a week. I was stressed but didn’t really know it. I couldn’t sleep. I was drinking way too much and would often turn up hungover. I felt as if I was wearing a mask to go to work. I wasn’t being me. The bright lights hurt my eyes. I needed something. I remembered Reiki. I found a lady nearby and went for my 1st session. To say I was disappointed is an understatement. I didn’t feel anything. I had wasted my money. However, something inside me had changed. I went to see a medium, started attending a monthly psychic evening, learnt Reiki for myself and got in touch with crystals. A whole new world was opening up before me which I absorbed like a sponge.I met my now ex husband and started a family. My spiritual side shelved whilst I got stuck into the routine of life and raising 2 children.
My Spiritual Awakening
In 2016 I lost my best friend, Lisa to cancer on my 36th birthday. The grief hit me. Hard. I cried. A lot. I realised that I had been flatlining and had become emotionally numb to life. I had put up strong walls around me to protect myself. Several months later my marriage fell apart. I was pushed back to my spiritual life. Reminding myself every morning when I got up. Just for today I will be grateful/mindful. I started using affirmations, using my crystals to balance my chakras, speaking to angels, finding solace at the spiritualist church where relatives who had passed would come through offering messages of support. Telling me I was doing the right thing.
I moved house with my children in August 2017. I felt liberated. I felt freedom that I hadn’t experienced in a long time. I was in control of my destiny. Or so I thought. 12 months later I was facing homelessness. Single mum with 2 kids, my own business less than 3 years old, parents who couldn’t act as guarantors due to changes in the laws. For the first time in my life I felt discriminated against. Thankfully I found somewhere a week before I was due to move out.
These huge life experiences happened to me within an 18 month period. The loss of my friend woke me up to life. I had become emotionally numb I couldn’t remember the last time I had cried or laughed or allowed myself to feel any emotions. I had suppressed them and pushed them far away. Some people talk about a Dark Night of the Soul. It is a misleading term as this doesn’t happen in a night, it can last weeks or months. It feels heavy. Tears come. I was lucky. I had a set of tools that I used to get me through this dark time in my life. I shared these in my book, A Gentle Hug for the Soul as I wanted people to know what was out there to help them. I feel as if these tools can provide a basic solid foundation for getting through this Dark Night of the Soul.
I am sharing this video which I made with Paul Robinson which shows a bit of the work I do with people and what a spiritual mentor is
Post spiritual awakening
I would love to say that’s it. You awaken and life is simple, a bed of roses, whatever analogy you want to use. It isn’t. The awakening of your soul is just the beginning. The beginning of your own spiritual journey, which will take you through many bends and turns and there will be many opportunities to heal. It is a bit like an onion, as we begin to shed the first layer there is another layer underneath to shed
My own spiritual journey has continued and developed since my initial awakening, and I have recently came through another Dark Night of the Soul. This time I was slightly more prepared! As the Universe/Upstairs/Source continues to guide me on my path I continue to write down my experiences and the tools so they will become a guide for others. My hope is that when my children are older and read it, it helps them make sense of who they are at a soul level.
As we awaken ourselves to who we truly are, we become more at peace with ourselves. When we stop doing what we think we should be doing and instead learn to be who we truly are.
When we heal ourselves, we are also healing our relationships, our family, our children, our friends, our colleagues.
The work I do is varied. As a self taught shaman, facilitating healing and spiritual growth is what I do. I am a catalyst for others healing work to begin, sometimes intentionally and sometimes not. Sometimes I am in the same room and someone begins to cry. Tears are healing so all good. I write and talk about my journey with honesty and integrity. I love teaching and holding space for others
I cover topics as well as interviewing other spiritual peeps about their journey here https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxtIoMYTXPLh2Y3zLYqGVxw?view_as=subscriber
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You can read my book, A Gentle Hug for the Soul, available here https://uk.bookshop.org/books/1605841805_a-gentle-hug-for-the-soul-providing-comfort-and-reassurance-in-times-of-need/9781916280502?aid=1520
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